Thursday, September 07, 2006

A Daughter Grows Into Herself

My daughter returned to college this week. She’s a sophomore at a University of California campus only a half-hour drive from our home. Despite the nearby proximity, we decided last year it would be good for her to live on campus, not only because it’s more convenient, but because of the transitional value of life in a dorm.

She left for college as a political science major and came home as an English major. In between the change in her major she flirted with the sciences, having taken an oceanography class to satisfy her core requirements. The theory of continental drift fascinated her. She saw the whole of creation through the evolution of the earth. Yet she did not move into the sciences because the arts and humanities wooed her back through her first university level English class. Everything her teachers have been saying throughout her educational experience came into focus through this class.

Have I mentioned that she’s a scholar? A recipient of the university’s Chancellor’s Scholarship, among a list of other scholarships won during high school, my daughter craves knowledge. Not just trivia that makes good party chat, but the deep truths of how things work, why they work as they do, what happens when things break. She loves a research challenge and finding new ways to present time-honored truths. She has found an avenue of adventure in writing.

Had I tried to mold her into my own hopes for her she would have been a music major. I’ve been told by music teachers that perfect pitch does not exist, but near-perfect pitch does. She has it. Her soprano is clear and crisp, without shrill. When she plays piano and sings “Come What May” from Moulin Rouge, I get chills. All summer long she played selections from Phantom of the Opera while I worked. The house is silent now, the piano will collect dust again.

Her tennis coach thought she could have been ranked had we put her in competitive tennis early on. She picked up the game as a freshman in high school and smoked through lessons, burned up the court with her speed, but often defeated herself in the head play. Steve Kronseder, the tennis pro who took her under his wing, was an English major himself and did as much for her tennis game as he did her scholarship. I watched during lessons when he’d smash balls at her and then toss over questions about Beowulf, Chaucer, or Shakespeare. He’s the one who instilled in her the value that college is not a place to go to prepare for a job, but to explore knowledge.

Over the past year my daughter came home on weekends to do laundry, raid the pantry, see her local friends, and attend church with the family. When she went away in September of last year she was a girl excited to be out of the social cauldron called high school. She had no interest in joining a sorority, but made quick friends with her suite mates. The typical dorm hall dramas came and went and she often found herself the one doling out the psychic band-aids. It’s no wonder that this year she’s a Resident Advisor to a co-ed hall of 44 students.

She gave up her spring break last year to go on a service trip to Pass Christian, Mississippi, the gulf area most devastated by Katrina’s fury. She saved her money from her job at Starbucks to pay for the trip and came back a changed person. When we planned our summer vacation this year to include a week in New Orleans, she logged on with Habitat for Humanity and worked for three days in the brutal heat and humidity to build houses in the Ninth Ward area called Musician’s Village.

Only a few weeks ago she began a blog, Bella Voce. After 19 years of watching her attack and subdue anything she set her mind on I should not have been surprised at the depth of her writing. Yet I was. I’m glad I didn’t overbear my hopes on her in her early years with music. As talented as she is, I can see now that writing will be her destiny. She was born the spitting image of my husband; my genes seem to have been cancelled from her physical appearance. She’s blonde, I’m brunette; she’s blue-eyed, I’m hazel-eyed; she’s slender, I’m Reubenesque; she’s tall, I’m short. But as she gets older I see more of myself in her in different ways.

Elisabeth went away to college last fall as my daughter, but she came home as my friend. I’m missing my daughter, but I’ll always have my friend.

9 comments:

Devon Ellington said...

How beautiful. And it shows what a loving and nurturing parent you are to allow her to be herself.

Anonymous said...

Can writers ever have nothing to say? No, but the words of another can leave them with only one response.

Thank you Mom and I love you.

~Elisabeth

Devon Ellington said...

Thanks for your comment on my blog. I certainly woulnd't send OUT a novel over 100K, but I'm going to let it run its course.

I'm known for using the red machete, often going too far with the cuts.

But it's usually the second draft that runs long, not the first. The first is usually a skeleton, the second goes on far too long, and then the red machete comes out and we have something I can send to the Trusted Readers before the next round of revisions.

If I limit an early draft to a word count (unless I'm writing to a specifically contracted guideline), I kill the piece. Believe me, it gets pruned plenty before an editor ever gets a whiff!

But thank you for the suggestion.

Big Kid said...

If only there were more parents out there such as yourself.
You raised a wonderful person.=)

Devon Ellington said...

Chat, chat, chat go we! I absolutely adore cutting -- it's my second favorite part of the process, after creating! ;) Cutting a play in rehearsal is my favorite -- once you have a three dimensional human saying the words, about 30% of them can go!

Mike Morabito said...

Hey,
I have to agree with you Elisabeth is a wonderful strong and soft woman of God. You have done a great job raising her!

-Mike Morabito
ps. I think you have also done a good job raising her little brother also. He cracks me up. :)

Ovation Leader said...

Hey, Mike. Thanks for the note. I wish you lived closer, because I think you'd be a good mentor for Jon to hang out with. Why don't you come out for one of his football games and we'll all go out for pizza afterwards?

Anonymous said...

Congratulations for such a beautiful daughter. From her comments on my blog, I knwo she is a very deep thinking girl and very spiritual. No doubt she is very talented too.

Barbara Koob said...

Sweet Article about your beautiful daughter! Hope you are doing well Carolyn.